i hate you, dont leave me...

The title of this blog, is actually the title of a song ive listened to recently by Demi Lovato and in parts i think it really reflects my feelings and ive pretty much had it on repeat for the last hour...

"I hate you, dont leave me, i feel like i cant breathe...

I want you to love me...

But i can't back down. no i cant deny, that i'm staying now 'cause i can't decide. Confused and scared i am terrified of you...

I admit im in and out of my head, dont listen to a single word ive said...

They forget me, dont see me...

When they love me, they leave me...

I hate you, dont leave me...

I hate you, please love me."


 Bub-bye bloggers...

I do love this girl...

Linguistics...

I wish i had the right words to tell you how i feel. To tell you how much you mean to me and how important you are in my life. No matter what mood i am in, you NEVER fail to make me smile. I dont know how you do it and one day i will know the secret behind your infinite wisdom and happiness.
I look forward to seeing you everyday and you make waking up at 7 in the morning, soo worthwhile and you need to be very special to have that kind of ability. Believe me. 
I wonder everyday, if you think the same about me. Probably not. It's just wishful thinking. But for now, that's good enough for me...

Bub-bye bloggers...:)

I know this is pretty much cliche, but you past this test...

i'm not changing who i am...

The title for this blog seems borderline cliche if im honest but i feel like that this statement is almost an impossibility. 
If you think about it, can you pinpoint and explain exactly the kind of person you are? Sure, you could tell me some characteristics you possess but we seem to think that these define us in every situation and will affect every action we perform, but if faced with a situation of danger say, we could do a 180 degree turn and be a person we didnt know we were and do things that we thought were out of our capabilities. But i hear you say that would be because of adrenaline produced from fear of our lives being potentially at risk of injury, but at the end of the day we can't predict the future and our actions in any given situation are influenced by the people and activites occuring at that point in time, not necessarily by 'the kind of person we are'...
Personally, I think that we are never just one type of person for your entire life, but we grow and adapt to our current living situation and the people we're surrounded by. For example, when i started high school, i was the nerd that went to the library in every spare moment i had for the first to years, but as i continued throughout the school and took on more responsibilities and made new friends and learned what habits and opinions they had, i found myself coming out of my shell and becoming more confident and now if my 11 year old self looked at what i was now, she wouldnt believe that i had become this.
In conclusion to this rather opinuated blog post, as we grow and experience more of the world, we become wiser and more knowledgable of the way things in the world work, it becomes inevitable that we will change as a person and obtain new and sometimes better characteristics that make you a better person... :)

i hope this makes sense....i knew what i meant ;)

Bub-bye bloggers :D

very true...

 

Taking a break

Sorry about this peeps but i probably won't blog for a week or so because of exam season coming up i do appologise, but i will try my best to blog in between revision.

I'm trying, i really am... o.O

Bub-bye bloggers...

Distance

Hey again, i'm sorry i haven't  been blogging very often but i think i've mentioned the reasons behind it...Anyway, i've felt like i need the distance and time from people to gather and ponder my thoughts about stuffs that i don't particularly want to get into right now. So instead i think i'll try to enlighten you and make sense of what im saying through pictures and i've also noticed that these kind of blogs get more views, i dont know why but if you like them i dont mind posting more blogs like them, so here...

One of the thoughts i've been pondering...

easier said than done...

you never fail to make me laugh...

true for many more reasons than you know...

I'm not a girl who thinks a guy is the answer...I'm just tired of being alone.

 Bub-bye bloggers...

Complexities...

Why is everything so difficult?

• Feelings
• school
• GCSE's 
• people
• home
• ...living.

I can't get certain things and people out of my head, for good and bad reasons and i cant tell if it is affecting me both personallly and academically...Part of me wants to think about the good things, but the time i dominate to thinking about these things makes the bad things just that much worse.

I'm more confused than anything else and i wish i knew what to do, or had any kind of social capabilities.

Bub-bye bloggers.

i wish i could tell you this...