New beginnings.

Since I started college, ive had my ups and downs and everything inbetween, but i can safely say that this has been the best big step in my life so far. 

I have made new, amazing friends who seem to actually enjoy my company, learned how to deal with anxiety and stress, and built a new wall of confidence i didnt know i could have.

Sure it feels like im redoing my GCSE's but this time round is sooo much better. I feel like i know myself a lot better now...mostly anyway. 

I have feelings still that i dont know how to deal with, there are people in my life that im confused about but what seemed to take up my thinking time has phased into a low hum in the back of my mind which only rears its ugly head when i have nothing better to do...so overall im ok.

Im doing fine. 

Im becoming a responsible young adult....wow, now that snuck up on us pretty quickly didnt it? ;)

Although for now i shall leave to do some much needed revision for my upcoming exams...i have a feeling that my desk will become my natural habitat for the next few weeks xD

Bub-bye for now bloggers :)

Ha, love this. Although if only they knew.... ;)

HIIIIII!!!!!...............BYEEEE!!!!!!

F.R.I.E.N.D.S is the best!!!

Passion.

I've found that i don't have many hobbies like my friends do. It always made me kind of sad that i was never the kind of child who wanted to go to guides or dance or gymnastics or even a musical instrument. But the further i get through life, the more i realise that these can be more of a burden at times rather than a past time. So recently i've found that despite the fact that i dont belong to clubs, i am passionate about some things.

1.  Reading- Since i learned to read at a young age, i've done (some would say) way too much of it. I know this can come across as being nerdy or geeky (of which i am, but thats not the point...) but i will point out that this is all fiction reading, not newspapers or other non-fiction that will expand my knowledge of the world and its contents, but nevertheless, it's what i enjoy and it makes me happy. It gives me an escape when i need it most. Thats all that matters to me. 
2. Music/singing- Yet another thing that allows me to escape and also to explain the feelings that i can't express in my own words. Also, i would never claim to be a good singer and i dont aspire to be one in the future, i just do it mainly for a challenge every now and then and again just for enjoyment and relaxation. However, i do personally think i sound AMAZING in the shower ;) (just kidding).
3. T.V shows- ALL THE TV SHOWS!!! I watch so many tv shows with my dad, that i couldn't possibly try to name them all xD I share this passion with some of my friends too, for example, with my guy friends we fan-boy/girl over a show called Arrow, (which i suggest everyone watches, because Stephen Amell not only is he gorgeous- as i'll prove later- but is such a down to earth, lovely and amazing guy) and all its badass-ness ;)

I know this doesn't seem like a lot (and there are more things to add to the list, which i may do in the future) but for now this is what im passionate about currently. SO, i shall now leave you with some B-E-A-UTIFUL pictures of Stephen Amell's abs....*cough*...i mean pictures of the badass-ness that is Arrow ;) 

Bub-bye for now bloggers :)

One of my all time favourite quotes <3

Everyone loves felicity...and Amell of course...GO OLICITY!

SEE!!! <3 BE MINE STEPHEN!

Umm YES, with me ;)

“You will always be my girl”

—	Oliver Queen, Arrow

— 

Oliver Queen, Arrow

 Keep Calm and Ship Olicity!!!!

 ;)

 

Contentment.

This is what i'm feeling like today. Content. So i thought i'd do a picture post as i do enjoy these. I discover some lovely quotes and images when i do. So here we go :)

I just like the irony of this quote xD

This is just me in a phrase :D

Come on people! I'm pointing out the obvious ;)

Exactly!

Absolutely love this. I hope im not the only one with an inner voice ;)

So i know there isnt a lot but its enough for now, so...bub bye for now bloggers :)



 

New start.

Ok, so the last time i blogged was November...last year. Oops.

Soo, ummm, not a lot has changed. The only difference now is my thoughts and feelings of my 'friendship' group. 

I cant begin to express how thankful i am that they took me in when i needed them the most and i wouldnt be the way i am now without them...but im beginning to doubt whether thats a good thing. Is accepting the fact that you know youre going to be ignored if you contribute something to a conversation healthy? 

Nope. Didnt think so. 

So time to start fresh. But this time on my own. Im not going to stop talking to everyone, thats just petty, no i am going to be independent. Get things done. Be happy. Live healthier. 

Maybe now i can feel accepted in some way. Have the freedom to find who i actually am. I dont want to feel restricted by the influence that the people around me have. 

I guess thats my belated new years resolution :)

Also, side note: Valentines day for me this year (like every other year for me) was painstakingly empty again. Im genuinely thinking about whether i have some kind of involuntary repulsion power o.O

I really want to start blogging more often but im not going to make any promises because i know i wont be able to stick to it. So i guess ill be back whenever the feeling comes to me ;) 

Bub-bye for now bloggers :)

This is soo apt for a bookworm like me <3

Awwwwww :'(

aww...i want please even if it is just once...

I want someone like this...

can someone like this walk into my life right now?

please?