i've been thinking...a lot

Here's the weird thing about me: my head is always in one of two states.

• Aways in overdrive, thinking over everything four or five times - for that I blame the anxiety.
• Or thinking about absolutely nothing - numb to feeling anything or caring about the world.

Lately, it's been a good mix of both, but the weirdest part and most frustrating part about all of this is, I LOVE organisation so when my head is in a bit of a mess I get into my worst moods. I hate it because I can't explain it without sounding stupid or crazy. So I guess this is what i'm trying to do right now, find an outlet to organise my thoughts and feelings so that somehow I can feel sane and together and....normal - in the loosest sense of the word. Time to explore different methods I guess. Let's pull yourself together shall we?

Bub-bye for now bloggers <3

hmm...