I don't know what to call this.

Right now I'm angry and terrified.

I'm angry because of people. I'm terrified because I feel like im going to explode because im so angry. But here's the thing - I HATE confrontation....I think if I was ever in a fight i'd have a heart attack, my heart beats THAT fast. So instead I vent at the wall, and that makes my heart start racing fgs.

I have my first proper therapy session on tuesday and im nothing short of petrified. I want to forget about it but I can't. I can't skip it because my guilty conscience would make me feel sick to my stomach, but so does the thought of going in the first place.

Jesus this is a vicious cycle.

Bub-bye for now bloggers<3

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