mind ramblings...

Most people in my life at the moment are precious to me, they help me day in day out and make an effort to make my day good without even realising that they're doing so. But i was talking to my closest friend yesterday and realised that our friendship group is slowly pulling apart into branches of seperate groups...this scares me a little, because its the first sign of independence for all of us but also signals the end of high school, where i met all these wonderful people.
I also had a weird dream last night- about prom. I wasnt sad then but i woke up crying because i wasnt sad in the dream because i know that deep down im probably not going to talk to many of my current friends once ive started college. It feels horrible saying that but i know its true and i hate that. 
There are some people though that i really hope to keep in touch with after high school, maybe even get to know better...
High school. The largest and most life-changing part of our insignificant lives. The period when you try to figure out who you are and what you want to do and go in life...i notice that the difficulty in these decisions varies between people, but for me it has been fairly simple. Ive always known what ive wanted to do in the future and the kind of person i was and who and what i liked. The one thing i have struggled the most with high school is the friends. Finding someone i can truly trust with everything i tell them, not like the first mistake i made that took me 3 years to realise i had made...no i have found my true friends, although it may have been later than i had liked, i have enjoyed every moment spent with them and i cant express how much i will miss these guys. They have been the ones that gave me the confidence i have now in myself, the great memories and inside jokes i have and happiness and laughter i have never experienced with anyone else.
I need to appreciate the people in my life more.
I love you guys, you may not be reading this but hey ho its out to the universe now. :)
Bub-bye bloggers.

you should know this by now...