Ok so deep thought of the week. I've realised just how short life really is. This thought has been taunting me all week and i've wanted so bad to talk to someone about it but it just a terrible topic to talk about and i don't want to bring people down to that level. So a great weight has just been lifted off of my chest by typing this all down, so thank you to whoever is reading this i may not know you but i've now shared my deepest thoughts with you who took the time to read this nonesense and to that i say 'you will never know how much i appreciate it, but i can tell you now its bigger than any possible scale you can think of'.
I've also been feeling like a crappy friend recently and i want to change it so bad, but i just don't feel worthy of such amazing friends anymore. There was a time where i would think the exact opposite. With no friends i would think that it was their loss and that i would make a great friend. But the closer i get to my friends, the more i realise that that thought couldn't be anymore false. I'm not looking for compliments or sympathy when i say these things but i've had that little of a social life that i just can't navigate myself through a friendship, meaning i don't kknow the right things to do, the right things to say or things as simple as how to initiate conversation. God knows how i'm going to find a boyfriend. -_-
But on the other hand, i had a great holiday last week with great weather and i'm learning to appreciate the small things and i'm loving it. I don't think i could thank the world enough for being so beautiful. I know there is evil also but at the end of the day that is just part of life that we all need to accept. Well that was a weird tangent but i'm feeling particularly appreciative today.
Bub-bye bloggers :)
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