Anyway, I got to thinking about this year and what its been like for me, and I did come to some conclusions and I will warn you - they're not happy. That seemed to be the theme this year unfortunately.
I've been very mournful. I lost a lot this year but as did the world. Terrorist attacks. Hate crimes...I wont continue that list, you get it.
But I've lost myself this year, along with my connections to people and it all hit me in a big wave recently, and it hit me hard.
I dont know if i've brought my grandad up on this blog before but he had a MASSIVE influence on my childhood, despite the short time together. A big part of me is my grandad and I lost him a good 6/7 years ago now but this year particularly after finishing my first year of uni, I wanted nothing more than for him to see me accomplish one of the biggest things in my life and I could almost picture the pride on his face when I would tell him.
I miss him.
I wish he was here.
Now I cant see the screen through tears so I should probably stop now.
Bub-bye for now bloggers <3
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