I've had many MANY breakdowns since the last post I put up...like actual life altering mental breakdowns that have changed my perspective on my path in life. The only thing that has kept me sane recently is starting to read Happy by Derren Brown and I can't believe how just little changes to your thought process can alter your entire perspective.
However, as lighthearted as that now seems my head is in a very dark place and i've never needed help more than I do now. But recently i've found better friends to rely on and surround myself with, realised I need to put less pressure on myself and focus on my mental health and ultimately realised that changing my career path that i've been dedicated to for the best part of 20 years down another path ISN'T me giving up and I should be proud of how far I have already come.
I'm really struggling to write much more right now, so I am going to come back to this tomorrow.
Bye for now
