I don't know what to name this post...

You know what i hate? Feelings. Life. My uselessness of coping with anything.

But you know what i love? My friends. My family. And more recently i've liked this guy....but that's not the point to this post.
I've found that i'm very closed off. I'm honest with my closest friend, but even then i miss out some very rather large details, but i just can't bring myself to bring her down to this level. She already has soo much on her mind and plus i don't think i'll ever be able to say them out loud.
That sounds more dramatic than it was supposed to be. OK let me put it like this. I have 2 states of mind:

• The blank one- where i completely zone out and become emotionless lets say...
• The chaotic one- where i think about everything and anything to do with life and its meaning...
  
  

Neither one of these makes me good company so most of the time i try to distract myself by socialising with friends, but it gets difficult sometimes.
However, on a more positive aspect of my life, college is going great, even if it is really time consuming but i guess thats a good thing sometimes. But it is great i'm enjoying all of my subjects and i'm making quite a few new friends. Its great! Now that i know college is great i'm really looking forward to uni :)

Bub-bye for now bloggers :)

John Green is the best!

I'm going to move on...

I find i'm the kind of person to hang up on things, taking forever to let things go and letting them get to me. But from today onwards i'm going to try to help myself for once. Let you go and move on so i can be happy all the time rather than some of the time. 
So my social week has come to an end and i find that college has crept up on me. I'm both looking forward to and dreading college. I find i'm terrible in social situations where i'm with people the same age as me. I become really self-conscious and very aware of what i should or want to say and because of it i struggle to feel comfortable with anyone and it takes me WAAYYY too long to make friends. Although i am looking forward to doing maths and sciences again. It's been a long time and i'm kind of a....nerd.
Anyway, doing this blog is making me think too much about the first paragraph and that is defying my own promises. Great, so this has started off really well.

Bub-bye for now bloggers. Now for a few nerdy quotes ;D

HAHAA! John Green is actually my favorite person in the world <3

This should happen...

What a great quote.

 

Social-ness

So this week will be fairly busy. Well to my standards it will...
Today i saw Meg- a very close friend of mine- and it was lovely. We can just talk about nothing all day long and it's just comfortable. I feel so lucky to have someone like that in my life and i never want to let that go.
Tomorrow i shall be enrolling in college seeing another friend and viewing a house and the day after i'll be meeting up with yet another friend. So all in all i think this week is going well so far :)
I think this is the most social i've been  in one week...
I've been thinking a lot this week about life and stress and people but my most recent holiday helped me forget all that and for once i felt completely relaxed. It was nice. But i'll be starting college soon, i'm both nervous and excited but we'll see how it goes.

But for now bub-bye bloggers :)

This is oh so true ;D