Soo, ummm, not a lot has changed. The only difference now is my thoughts and feelings of my 'friendship' group.
I cant begin to express how thankful i am that they took me in when i needed them the most and i wouldnt be the way i am now without them...but im beginning to doubt whether thats a good thing. Is accepting the fact that you know youre going to be ignored if you contribute something to a conversation healthy?
Nope. Didnt think so.
So time to start fresh. But this time on my own. Im not going to stop talking to everyone, thats just petty, no i am going to be independent. Get things done. Be happy. Live healthier.
Maybe now i can feel accepted in some way. Have the freedom to find who i actually am. I dont want to feel restricted by the influence that the people around me have.
I guess thats my belated new years resolution :)
Also, side note: Valentines day for me this year (like every other year for me) was painstakingly empty again. Im genuinely thinking about whether i have some kind of involuntary repulsion power o.O
I really want to start blogging more often but im not going to make any promises because i know i wont be able to stick to it. So i guess ill be back whenever the feeling comes to me ;)
Bub-bye for now bloggers :)
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| This is soo apt for a bookworm like me <3 |
