Insecurities.

We all have them. Whether it's physical or internal within our minds, even the cockiest person has an insecurity. How do we deal with this? We mask them, we put ourselves down by torturing ourselves like its wrong to look like the way we were born, or disgustingly we project our insecurities at other people and take others down to our own level in some feeble attempt at making ourselves feel better. The latter are what call bullies, but I wont go into that rant.
The point of this post is that, I want to learn to love myself and be more confident and comfortable in my own skin but its hard in a internet hard-wired society that brainwashes us with images of fake perfection that is flawless contour and highlight, eyebrows that are on fleek and a figure that runway models would be jealous of. Considering the generation I grew up in, i've done quite well to have a reasonable amount of confidence - well enough to get me through the day without requiring the online validation of meaningless figures to my follower count or the likes on my pictures. Everything I do online as well as in my offline life I do for me. To make me happy. Not others. I dont need their validation. At one point I thought I did, but that quickly dissipated when I realised that was a hopeless effort as my posts got lost in the sea of what I percieved to be "perfection" when in reality most of it is fake.
So yes, I do have insecurities - imperfections i'd want to correct but never would because they are what make me, me. I have ears that stick out a little more than most but I accept that they can actually be cute at some angles. I have pale, sparse eyebrows which I do fill in but only because it makes me feel confident and happy not because I want to impress the insta stars or the beauty gurus with how symmetrical I can make them. Nearly 99% of the time I have hair that looks like a birds nest if not straightened or tamed in some way shape or form, but I appreciate the malleability of it. I'm like half an inch off six foot and for a girl thats ridiculous if I want to wear heels on a night out AND have nice pictures taken with my friends where I dont look like a hunchback as I try to fit into the frame, but I appreciate the fact I can reach to the back of the tallest shelves when I need something for myself or others.
No matter what your insecurity, you should realise that even though you may not like it you are allowed to change it but maybe try looking for the positive in what you see in the mirror before you lose all hope, because god knows i've been there and I know how miserable it is. However, in looking for the positives, you are making this world a darn sight more prettier in its views than the one we currently live in that I can only wish and hope gets better for at least my future kids if I have any.

Anyway bub-bye for now bloggers<3

top - makeup half . middle - no makeup half . bottom - no makeup and glasses (all pictures are me, sorry for the crap webcam quality) .  We just need to learn to love ourselves, or at the very least just be kinder to ourselves and others around us. Maybe we wouldnt all be so miserable all the time, if we did that.