I struggle with this concept we call control.
I hate to not be in control.
But with important decisions I need someone else to take control. I'm a coward like that.Controlling things until i'm too scared to.
But that's my deep rooted issue. Fear.
Fear that everyone is out to bring me down.
Fear that people dont like me.
Fear that people might envy and therefore hate me.
Fear of attention.
Fear of confrontation.
Fear of being in big crowds.
Fear of being alone.
I'm a tall, lanky, anxious ball of fear. And I dont know how to harness and control it.
I'll leave it at that for today.
Bub-bye for now bloggers<3
