This time however, it has brought on a new kind of wave of emotion or lack of in this case. I have my usual bad anxious habits like biting my lips and tongue and procrastination, but this year I have put a whole new level of pressure on myself to get a 2:1 and as much as I know im capable of getting it, my mind is being a bitch about it and seems to have other plans.
What im trying to get to is that, my obsessive picking has gotten worse and ive never felt so uncomfortable in my skin like this and every now and then - usually when im left to my thoughts - I have an almost out of body experience. Like im not really present. Like I clocked out mentally. I hate it because i'll be walking down the street and this will happen but i'll keep on walking and somehow I clock back in and i've forgotten the last 5 minutes. I feel like i'm actually losing my mind.
I know this will probably pass after my exams but what about the next period of stress in my life. How do I get this under control? What is even happening to me when I clock out?
Not going to lie, it does scare me.
Bub-bye for now bloggers<3
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| this song lyric has always hit me hard... |
