emotions...

Besides the fact that I'm socially awkward and uncomfortable voicing my opinions for the fear of not being able to word it right or of what other people will think (I know I shouldn't care, but everyone cares and everyone is aware ok?), I still don't like voicing my opinions for others because their mine you know? I'm quite aware that what I think will be different to someone else's thoughts and I'm all for a good healthy debate...but sometimes those debates are misconstrued and are blown completely out of proportion and the media is a bitch for this...oh hey there was an opinion.

It has gotten to a point in society however that ANYTHING you say can be misinterpreted or twisted in a way to sound negative.

You can never please EVERYONE.

Personally, I think it better if I just listen to others and nod every now and then and have my own internal debate...that way no one can be hurt.

In some ways I guess this isn't healthy and there are some things that DEFINITELY need talking about openly; equality, sexual abuse/consent, topical issues...to name a few. But this is me, and I'm doing just fine the way I am...

At least I think I am :)

Bub-bye for now bloggers xx

just a thought...

Update.

I'm learning to drive. Yeap. Me. Emily. One of the clumsiest people in the world is learning to drive. I hate it right now. I nearly had a panic attack behind the wheel while I was driving. How my dad trusted me to do that I'll never know.
But somehow its given me the burst of confidence. Just because I got scared and panicky, it doesn't change the fact that I drove a car yesterday.

Again, I achieved goal 3 from my last post. I was well and truly terrified. But I'm definitely glad I did it...

Here's to another lesson I guess...lets hope I don't die.

Bub-bye for now bloggers :)

not really no but i'll do it anyway...

My goals

I had a few BIG goals this year all to do with my future career that were extremely difficult in ways to achieve because in life there are no guarantees. They were as follows;

1. get into my first choice university with at least a conditional offer
2. get my first proper job that earns money
3. do things that LITERALLY scare you
4. learn about how to live alone

So far, I have achieved number 1 and 3. I am so incredibly happy this week. I just feel like for once the universe is on my side...and knowing my luck I've probably just jinxed it...but yes, I have a conditional offer from the my best and favourite uni, meaning all I have to do now is work hard and get the grades. As for 3, socialising is a big, scary thing for me and it isn't easy for me to do. But this week has been a big one in the eyes of socialisation. I've spoken to people I don't know and I've opened up and become more welcoming to others which is something I SERIOUSLY lacked.
Because I feel like scaring myself more after that adrenaline rush (dramatic but true) I decided to start looking for jobs, so hopefully I will have a 3rd ticked off by the end of this month...this is all scary stuff guys.
I feel like setting these kinds of goals is extremely important because even though some of hem can be extremely extravagant, it feels x100 better than if you achieved 'eat less unhealthy foods' and personally I feel really proud and accomplished.
I'm really starting to grow up now and i'm slowly fitting into my own personality. Maybe you should set yourself some goals today. record them. plan them. achieve them. I cannot express how great this feeling is...
I think teenage Emily would be proud of 2015 Emily...x

bub-bye for now bloggers<3