I don't know what to name this post...

You know what i hate? Feelings. Life. My uselessness of coping with anything.

But you know what i love? My friends. My family. And more recently i've liked this guy....but that's not the point to this post.
I've found that i'm very closed off. I'm honest with my closest friend, but even then i miss out some very rather large details, but i just can't bring myself to bring her down to this level. She already has soo much on her mind and plus i don't think i'll ever be able to say them out loud.
That sounds more dramatic than it was supposed to be. OK let me put it like this. I have 2 states of mind:

• The blank one- where i completely zone out and become emotionless lets say...
• The chaotic one- where i think about everything and anything to do with life and its meaning...
  
  

Neither one of these makes me good company so most of the time i try to distract myself by socialising with friends, but it gets difficult sometimes.
However, on a more positive aspect of my life, college is going great, even if it is really time consuming but i guess thats a good thing sometimes. But it is great i'm enjoying all of my subjects and i'm making quite a few new friends. Its great! Now that i know college is great i'm really looking forward to uni :)

Bub-bye for now bloggers :)

John Green is the best!