I guess ignorance is bliss...

Warning: This blog will be full of sadness so, if you're upset easily, i don't recommend reading this post.

Recently our rottweiler, shadow (8), has been in a bit of pain: yelping when she sat up from the lying position, being very sluggish in her movements and not eating properly. We put this down to her hip dysplasia, which is very common in rottweilers and she had pretty much suffered with this for most of her little doggy life. But it became obvious that that was not what was wrong with her as she was also having difficulty breathing, which was reinforced by the fact that we had found a lump growing in her neck...this is when I knew there was no going back to normal.
She was taken to the vets today by my dad, after spending pretty much the whole day lying on my bed, and both of us was expecting the worst and i had spent half an hour by the window, crying, not expecting her to come back with my dad. I thought that i'd seen her for the last time.
About that time, my dad arrived home. With Shadow. The widest grin was set on my face before i saw the grim one on my dad. When they got inside, my dad, choking on tears, told us she wouldn't be coming home again, when he took her to the vets tomorrow morning, so we need to make this evening count. She has a cancerous tumor, fluid in her lungs and a weak heartbeat.
It's taken me a while to build the courage to depart from her side to write this post, as i feel this is both beneficial to me and her mentally. Me, because i needed to get this off of my chest and cry a little...ok a LOT. Her, because she doesn't know what's happening...she doesn't know that she won't see us again after tomorrow morning...won't go camping with us this summer and chase stones on the beach till she's knackered...
But i think that's for the best. For her, like the title says, ignorance is bliss, because soon she will not be in pain, soon she will be able to see xena (our old dog) again, she will be much happier then. It's times like these that i wish i believed in heaven, so one day i may be able to see her again...
I'm going to go now because while i'm typing this, i'm crying and i'm beginning to lose sight of the keyboard and the screen so for now....
 
Bub-bye bloggers :'(

I love you Shadow, forever and always...</3