I'm sorry...

Let me start with one thing. I am TERRIBLE with organisation of events outside of school. I know this because of; 1) When raising money for gambia i only raised £300 out of the £1,500, 2) i never plan days outside of school with my friends because of this and 3) even when i think ive done eveything right, i will have always left something out.
Like today, i've never felt so useless and stupid in my whole life, i cant even organise where im getting changed before a meal. Im sorry.
But you should know that im not good with things like this, its not as if you havent known me long enough to know. 
Maybe, no one really knows me at all. You know what i dont really care, when someone can actually make an effort to ask, then i will reciprocate that and put in as much effort, but until then i'm sorry. Not because i messed up, but because you didnt know me enough to know that would happen. 
Maybe we could all learn from this? 

I'm aware there is a punctuation mistake, but the quote itself is true.