Is this mine?

There is no room in my head anymore. I dont know how it happened, but somehow all the space in my head is taken up by something: school work, homework, exams, revision, friends, family, social gatherings, money, college, life....the list could literally go on forever. There is no time to just think about me.
But that is partly because of my personality- i tend to worry and put others before myself and i guess people say that that is a good thing in some cases but i think we can all agree that doing that on a 24/7 basis can be unhealthy. Even i know that, yet i still do it -_-
I dont think its fair though, why doesnt anyone care for me 24/7? I know that is probably too much to ask for but it would be nice. 
I'm scared though. I'm scared of the future, im scared of being alone, im scared of not passing my GCSE's etc... But these are all irrational and pointless because deep down i know that i am capable...'if they can do it, i can do it.' but heres a crazy idea, what if i CANT do it? 
See this is what i do, and it bloody annoys me, i always think of the negative, always think of the future rather than the present, not appreciating what i have now while im thinking about what i could not have in my future. 
But from now on i want to make a personal target, 'live in the now and think positively' its going to be hard at first but i want to be able to do it. I want to have a bit more confidence in myself. I wish someone would just kick me into gear and sort me out...

this is what i want to be like...

 sort yourself out emily....