Update.

Just an update. Since my earlier post, i have done 2 pieces of artwork, learnt a quater of my german writing and 1 biology past paper. Personally i think that is a large amount and i think i now deserve like 5 coffees...each 2 litres in capacity...i am so mentally exhausted now.
But that is what scares me. If im struggling now, what is it going to be like in 3 years times when im in university learning about veterinary medicine, learning something that will require 10x more work?
Theoretically, so i am told, it will be easier because i will be doing what i enjoy and therefore it wont feel like work. But there is always going to be that bit of doubt in my head that fights to get through, forcing me to think about the negative things that could happen, like every other day... 
What if? Actually this could happen... No good can from this and you know it... If you cant do this right then you wont be able to do anything right...
They're the kind of things my head tells me and it can be hard to ignore sometimes, but so far i think im doing all right. 
But i think i will now go and what some Live at the Appollo and of course have more coffee.
FYI- if you couldnt tell, i cant really live without my daily caffeine intake ;)

this may be true most of the time but  mine was very productive i think....